These days it’s been really hard to even start dating somebody. I have a hard time even getting myself motivated talking to most people. I’ve had a lot of situations that’s cause me to distrust people and I’ve been slowly wanting to get back into something. However the situation is still fresh in my mind and I don’t want to be one of those people that talk negative all the time. So I have been slowly to talk to people because of that. I’m not a negative person but I just don’t want to give other people that impression. And another reason why I’m feeling this way right now is because I’m going through a lot of stress and it’s not fair for me to bring somebody else into that world. I have been doing everything I possibly can to improve my situation. One thing cool is that I have my own place no more roommates!
Now that I have my own place it would be nice if I had company over. However I do not want one night stands. I want something more solid. It would be nice if somebody spend the time to get to know me. When I first got to the area that I’m living at it felt like I made a lot of friends at once. But after some time it seems like they had lost interest because I was not so new anymore. And lately I’ve been a little bit more guarded because of that. And that’s kind of how some of the relationships I’ve had on OkCupid is gone. Guy’s first talked about what they’re interested in as far as Hobbies hiking and other things. Talk about life stuff past relationships and what are they looking for. However after they get to meet you and they get a little taste they’re not so much interested anymore. This is have been my experience so far with OkCupid. And now when I’m looking at the site it looks like I’m running to my friends who have profile as well on there. So it looks more unlikely that I’m going to actually find somebody who’s got an interest in me that I haven’t already ran into. Which is okay because I’ve been thinking for a while that I’m going to get back to doing things that I did when it was just me. Going hiking alone, painting, knitting, crocheting, comedy or whatever interest that I think of tomorrow.